~Live for the loved~

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Haiz...god..i know i did a lot of mistakes in life...might be sinful....haiz...too much problem added in my life...im tensed up....i look angry...but my heart is crying blood...i dunno y my life is a misery....everything is changing real quick...my mind is not ready....i dun have those fun life anymore..all i have is boredness....stress....sadness..misery......haiz....my head is really in pain.....problems are not only from her...from bands....frens....my future...my family(the most)........how am i gonna handle all this with two hands.....damn....seriously....im crying deep in my heart.....people just dun understand my life...neither do i...i wanna have those enjoyable life...everyone happy...i tried my best to make each and every part of my life happy,,,my frens...her...my family...i want all of them to be happy...but behind all this...its just another dark world...behind every smile there is a tear...and i smile often....im happy just to see all other ppl happy...but....me...sitting here...no one knows.....only God knows....

haiz....to Maan....:bro...let me know if u nid some help.....ill do my best to help...i know im not around these few weeks.....i hope u can take care of ur family n urself...remember....love ur family more than ur fren.....

To U...u know who u are:pls...dun add difficulties in me pls....bout just a small matter.....but..nvm..leave it...i will follow u k....ill spend my time with u....ok?just dun say im forcing myself or wat....all i knw....please be a bit flexible with me...i luv u too much to lose u.....

If my band reads dis...or who ever knows wats happening in my band....u guys can help me out rite by telling them dis situation..
To band: i never wanna seperate from Iron Child...i luv IC so much...im missing from u guys bcoz of some problems in my life which can totally change everything...i need u to understand my situation...i have to balance everything well...new things come in my life...i have to learn to balance them...give me time aite guys....i miss jamming with Iron Child...the band that make me realize i can play bass......

haiz....just saying my heart out....dun think u read dis n say u understand me.....there is more behind all this....my life hurts....my mum is sick...dad is sick...sis gonna have exams real soon....got no house to live in after dis few months...dad is working like fuck everyday....mum is doing her best to keep us together...sis is trying her hard for her PSLE....

WAT BOUT ME....SLACKING....THINKING BOUT OTHER STUFF.....SPENDING DAD's MONEY??????HAVE TO BALANCE BETWEEN FRENS N MY GAL.....im tired...all i know....i will achieve to balance all dis things....i will do my best....just wish all of those i care will be happy.....having bad pain in my head now...nvm....i got to be strong...I LUV MY FAMILY,MY SYG,MY BLOOD BROS,MY BAND......without dis...im dead....balancing all these and a few more is not an easy task...even adults sometimes cant do it...and..im only 19...with hardly any easy life...

spider blogged at 7:06 AM

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