~Live for the loved~

Saturday, February 14, 2009

went out with dumb2 today....she got me a white billabong wallet which is $40+....crazy ar spending ur money on me like dat...ksiow....but thnk u 4 dat...sori i only got u like fruit tarts...lol....i got no time to go even lot one....sori yer....went to pool....bosan sak ngan jai n wandi...jln mcm pengantin.....sot jer gua....da tunggu lamer....hhaha....but end up with wandi breaking up.....stupid gal....luckily im ok with dumb2....rite?its not totally her fault...maybe...im too concern.....i know im also at fault....but since u made a promise not to do anything...i will hold on to dat...and...i really respect ur ex telling u to ask me if u can follow him....once a while its ok lar for me...but if often dat one i dunno.....i dun mind if he contact u....i know my face will change...but...it is just a reaction i cant control...cause..i dun want to lose u....but..im ok now...BUT...the only thing im still not steady with is when someone fetch u frm somewhere bringing u here n there....the feeling is like painful i must say....and also the worry is there..but i wont stop u if u really need to....im sori to say but u should understand my side...i dunno wat is the mindset of those mat motor....but i dun feel right when u hop on a guy's bike and go travelling...maybe with u ex 4 me its ok...cause i knw he's just a fren rite.....dat one i can give way...but pls tell him not to main giler on the road when u are on his bike k?jgn selit2 giler2 can??i still dun agree if other guys bike....only wif his bike for me its ok..

as for u going to clubs...just make sure u know ur limits....i trust u....so dun break it....hmm...as for me....im starting to listen to metalcore/hardcore/deathcore again....i like only some lar...not all....but still...i hate their vocals...hahahhaa...they suck man.....im also starting to hear black metal again....actually da lamer ar....hahaa....the tension could be at ease a little listening to dis kinda songs....hahaha...i miss moshing with jai...i remember kicking someone's dick in a moshpit at Baybeats...lol....a chinese guy,....down in a moshpit....lying on the floor...hahahaha....beat up a bangla too....dunno wat the hell he is doing there....then mosh together with a hardcore chinese maniac......both of us are like hitting each other real hard...but he came to me and peace...haha..mosh mah...relek lar....den there was a time i was in the middle of the ring of the moshpit.....alone....really in the middle...and the circle close up on me...managed to spin kick some of the people....wakakaka...but in the end...i fell on the floor...jai the most bastard of all...."min, mosh ar"...me:"sembarrang".....jai:'amik kau'....he pushed me in the moshpit and i have to fight my way out....coz dat time the moshpit was quite big.....hahaa....miss those times....bodysurfing....1st time bodysurf i was like wat the hell....bring me down assholes....who planned it....JAI....hahaha..busted sia dat guy.....mosh at malex vid shoot oso best....Rosewood asked..who start the moshed....ppl say...Bayul....den Bayul say....no lar him lar....i smiled...hahahaha...kater metal mah...gesek sikit ar...hahaha...im going to hardcore/deathcore gigs....

and also to u...u dun worry bout me k...im quite used to moshing...i know its more dangerous than clubbing....but its my way of letting off steam...haha...dun think its like a revenge to hit u back...i just miss those times....but i dun mosh often...kejap jer...penat oi....high sak rasa...tk ya gi minum..hhaaha....i'll take care of myself....i wont get hurt badly lar k...and most impt i wont hurt u...if i have....im really sorry.....maybe im too stressed up n couldnt think straight...as for my gig...i wont force u to come....but u would really2 bring me the confidence n willingness to perform if u come.....actually just now...fizah n jai was tired...dats y they are like attitude...but u see jai....normal rite...its only your thoughts lar...jai oso joke around with u rite....fizah is too tired...she didnt even talk much....my frens are not like dat....i know them....even maan knows bout it cause confirm dia ngah baca nie.....he wont look down on u lar....its only a mistake that humans make.....no other people knows bout dis case....so u relek aite....ill back u up even anyone try to create shit wif u....and one more thing i realise....PANJANG PER POST...ily...peace...

and oso to maan...aku tk tau lar blog kau tu ape angin....pening jugak brain aku....lol...n...ada ape hal...sori aku tk call kau...confirm ko ngah tido.....aku pon da layu...tapi upload gambar satu2.....facebook rosak cm siak...hahaha....ko tc bro....jumpe time gig aite....

spider blogged at 9:43 AM

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